Isaiah was considered the greatest Old Testament Prophet and amazingly I still can’t figure out why he felt so undone before the LORD. This guy was extremely sold out and passionate for GOD. The famous scripture spoken by Isaiah “Woe is me, for I am undone! Because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips for my eyes have seen the KING, the Lord of hosts.” Isaiah 6:5
It is amazing how even after we give our hearts to GOD and HE cleanses us and restores us back to Himself we STILL have the sinful man/ woman hanging around to destroy the very thing GOD is pursuing to change in us. In my personal life, I found out really quickly that GOD can definitely do the miraculous of changing a man or woman instantly on the outward but the inward is layers and layers of messes that only GOD can clean and purify. It’s like He starts peeling layers of an onion and reveals to me how much of a stench there is. The baggage from yesterday that seems to NEVER disappear.
What I have come to find in my walk with GOD is when I fail to pursue Him on a daily basis my life reveals the madness or better yet, the foolishness that is deep down in my heart. My focus is taken off of Christ and His character and the old woman (selfishness) gets back in the drivers seat. As a result, that is when my husband begins to hear me nag more, my children get less of me and more of the “time out” because I am beyond frustrated, and pretty much everything else goes south. In the middle of it all, this mom has no strength left to get back on track because I feel like the damage has been done and in my little world I think it is beyond repairable. Unfortunately, from experience, getting back ON track has always been harder than getting OFF track. So, after feeling extremely exhausted and run down that is when I have realized I AM UNDONE and only GOD can cleans me.
Letting God purify and cleanse us may be painful but we must be purified so that we can truly represent God who is pure and holy. In my walk with HIM, I know that the purifying and cleansing He wants to do in me comes in the form of rising up way before my kids do, so that I can spend quality time in HIS presence, which is a sacrifice for me because I love to sleep. He also seems to be bringing me to a place where I truly depend and trust in HIM even when everything seems to fail.
Although, I have not yet overcome any of my character flaws and realistically probably never will without the power of GOD I have come to grips that just as Isaiah stayed daily in the presence of GOD and was cleansed so must I. In the meantime, I lean on His word that gives me this beautiful promise that “the LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. Psalm 103:8
This is a promise that I will hold on to while I wait on Him to cleanse and purify and bring me to the place where He wants me.
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